sis.

can i get serious for a minute and tell you about my baby sister? even though she is a grown woman with two babies, i will always see her as my little baby sis.

she is smart and talented. like really talented. she makes the simplest thing seem like the most beautiful. she has always been there for me. through everything. my little side kick and bff, even when we wanted to punch each other in the face. which i actually did do one time. what?

she is funny. like really really REALLY funny. i catch myself just laughing at everything she says.

she is loyal.

and i just love her a lot.

skiing.

we went on a ski trip this last weekend and it was such a good time. aside from skiing we went snowshoeing, toured temple square, shopped a lot, and ate food until we were pretty sure we would explode. plus we got stuck in a huge snow storm up cottonwood canyon and i have never been so scared in my life. i was shaking and almost in tears when we made it to the bottom.

i love spending time with danny. it's like my top favorite thing. making memories with him is the best thing i do.

this one time.

this one time. i was sitting in the living room. and my dad walks by with a hot dog in one hand and a 10 pound fish in the other. i never laughed so hard.

this one time. my dad kept telling me that i needed a pocket knife. he kept putting a camo colored one in my purse. and i kept taking it out. then finally i took it out and ran to the car. he chased me out and waved it at me as i drove away. he's never laughed so hard.

this one time. i came home with a fake glitter tattoo on my shoulder. my dad was sitting in the kitchen and i put on my best acting face and told him that i needed to tell him something. "i got a tattoo." he promptly stood up. walked me to my room. closed the door. and sternly said "don't tell your mom." then his face quickly changed to amusement and said "what tattoo did you get? this will be our secret." when he found out it was fake, we never laughed so hard.

i miss his laugh and i missing laughing because of him.

the one year mark came. and it was hard. and it was sad. and it almost felt like it was day one again. but somehow i feel inspired. i feel inspired by other's love and generosity. i feel inspired by kindness. i feel inspired by my dad's memory. by his legacy. by what he did in his short time here on earth. and even more inspired by all that he did for me in the short time he was in my life.

weekendz.

hi you guyz. so in case you didn't know, danny and i had to buy a new battery for the jeep this weekend. and that's how i found another reason that being an adult is stupid. if you didn't know danny and i only have one car. and normally i'm sure this wouldn't be a big deal. but we're not normal. danny works in springville and i work the furthest north in provo you can go. so it's not that fun. and spending money on gas is even worse. the plan last december when i sold my car was to just get a new one. 9 months later after going back and forth on which one i wanted, i decided this week is the week that i'm gonna woman up and just go get what i want. keep your fingers crossed.

we saw the movie looper. i was really mad that i had to go cause i wanted to see pitch perfect. so i threw a fit and said the only thing that would calm me down was a big drink and kettle corn. and cafe rio. and a new shirt. i only got two of those things. but i would say a 50% success rate for a woman with my demands is pretty good. anyway i only felt guilty for a minute once i realized looper is my new favorite flick. yeah there were weird cheesy parts, but i was oddly into it, and i'll probably see it again.

danny got the iphone 5. i am only a lot jealous. but mostly just happy for him. he has been waiting for the iphone 5 since i met him. seriously i don't know why, but he had his mind set on it and even when the 4 and the 4s came out he wouldn't budge. he waited it out. but get this, he had a FLIP PHONE before this. seriously, a flip phone. so i am happy he has upgraded. but also, get this. he used up all his data in 3 days. OOPS. so he is on probation until the 8th. 

bye.

fair.

danny and i went to the fair this saturday night instead of watching the byu vs utah game. i know, i seriously don't know how i managed to dodge the game, but i did! so anyway. we headed up there with his brother ian and his girlfriend. grabbed some delish food at california pizza kitchen and then went to the fair. we got to see all the animals. and i tried my best not to be completely terrified. i have a confession, bunnies terrify me. i can't help it. they freak me out. but the goats were cute and i liked the cows. the only thing that could have made the night better was a churro. but no luck.

one.

danny and i celebrated our one year of marriage in new york city. it was the best time. we ate so many delicious foods and did so much PDA. i was in heaven. sorry for the mushy stuff, but i am completely smitten with my love. we had a different first year than most. suffering the biggest loss of the most influential man of my life was the hardest and is the hardest thing i've ever had to deal with. i feel lucky that my dad was able to meet and approve of danny. i'm happy he left me in good hands. danny is my rock and my happiness. he has helped me with each hard day and is the reason for each best day. i love him with all the love i am able to muster. i picked a good one. happy one year baby boop bop bop.

ps. i'll post more about our new york trip. some day. when i have enough energy to sort through the pics.

hot.

it's hot in our apartment. like really hot. we have no ac. no window cooler units. we have two ceiling fans and, thanks to my mom, one standing fan. it is miserable. like i'm pretty sure hell will be like this. and the more i grow up the more i am in tune with what puts me in an instant bad mood. number one, hunger. number two, tiredness. number three, heat. and the problem is when all these three things happen at once it is like an explosion of melissa hormones and no one is really safe.

anyway. i don't know where i was going with that.

oh yeah.

i wanted to complain.